"To him she seemed so beautiful, so seductive, so different from ordinary people, that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones, why no one else's heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils, why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid, the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter."

- Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Love in the Time of Cholera

The Vanilla

I enjoy live music, museums, album listens, and slow mornings listening to jazz while luxuriating in the sheets.

A Bay Area native, I delight in foraging for mushrooms, dipping My toes in the ocean, and the slow drip of cold-brewed tea.

I am especially interested in the balance of Yin and Yang, of opposing energetics, and how each can be cultivated and honored. One could call these Masculine and Feminine energies, though I personally dislike gendering them as such. I believe that BDSM can facilitate this work as well as act as a vehicle with which we can explore healing trauma and self-growth. The intersection of My vanilla work and passions + My explorations in, and approach to, BDSM is what excites Me.

I don’t align with any gender nor particular expression. I simply am. And am quite comfortable in this state of being.
As such I greatly enjoy sharing space with people in all states of exploration and relationship with gender and sexuality.

I am particularly pleased by…

A few of My favorite authors:

Murakami, Vonnegut, Hesse, Robbins, Yoshimoto

I’m currently reading:

Salt, A World History by Kurlansky

The Creative Act, Rubin

Lastly, I adore cats.

The Kink

I’ve been exploring BDSM for 19 years and counting. In My journey I’ve had the pleasure of holding a 24/7 TPE dynamic, as well as guiding new submissives through first-time experiences, all while discovering My true needs and wants.

What I’ve discovered is that “real” BDSM — that is to say, when both of U/us are willing to be vulnerable and be O/our authentic selves in the session, is what feeds Me. I’m not made for role-plays, much as I enjoy them in My vanilla life. W/we are playing, yes, but W/we are not pretending.

These days I find Myself drawn evermore to bullying, sadism, rubber, and mummification. Oviposition remains one of My favorite ways to play — the thought of impregnating you with My eggs makes Me smile…

My Third Culture experience expresses itself in Kink as a love for hentai, tentacle CNC, furries, ABDL, and the things in Japanese media that touch on shame and swim in taboo. I am Japanese but not a Japanese Domme — and you must understand this nuance. There will be no race play when you serve Me.

I highly value obedience and therefore prioritize structured training and protocol for those who are cut from a similar cloth. My expression of sadism is peppered with humor because to watch you suffer, squirm, and yield is nothing short of entertaining. It is both the physical sadism and the mental manipulation of a person: to bring someone who ordinarily wouldn’t want or enjoy pain to the point of desperately begging for it — that absolutely delights.

It all comes down to control: of the situation, of the reactions, of you.